Good and Bad

Ok so i have some pretty good and bad news, for me anyways! I just found out that the Roland TD-4S is still in stock at Swee Lee which is awesome news! BUT! I have to work throughout my holidays to earn more money cause now i know it costs 2.4k OMG!

Well, its all worth is i guess. But then again after working 7 weeks its still not enough and i still have to save even more money. Like 700 more, unless someone buys my pool cue! Then WHEEEE i can buy it the minute i am done working 7 weeks and get my paycheck! Hopefully someone buys my cue.

Don't really have much to post, life has been boring...really boring. People keep getting in my way in everything that i do. I feel so lazy and bored nowadays, like I'm turning into a Samuel Tan or something haha. Not saying that its bad, but sam is just lazy beyond me haha!

I have lots of friends but I am starting to wonder if my philosophy of balance should not apply to friends. Cause it seems that when u try to balance your friendships you just end up with lots of friends but not a single friend who will stick by you no matter what, take a bullet for you, defend you, be a shoulder to cry on, a person to share my burdens with and etc. you get the idea, I'm talking about a true friend.

So i guess its time to choose very carefully the friends i want to be with and be a true friend to them and just stick with them. I'm really starting to be very distant from God, maybe thats why i feel like i have not even one true friend. Well i have an exam tmr and im not studying at all firstly cause i have no mood, secondly i cant get any of it into my brain and i just hope i don't fail this module. I want nothing more nothing less.

I have also been very lifeless and emotionless except for anger which is like the emotion i get most of the time, which is really bad. I read Men's Health for like the first time today and decided to follow the diet and excercise regime inside. I tried the excercise earlier today and i gotta say i nvr pushed myself this hard before. I worked so hard that i felt extremely dizzy after the excercise and i could like only hear my heartbeat and other emphasized sounds around me.

It was completely weird and cool but at the same time i felt like i was gonna collapse on the floor and die or something.

I wish this was just monday blues...but i highly doubt that. I have no idea what to do now and i just have no more mood to do anything. Ultimate ._. blank. Im not even looking forward to CNY anymore. Well Hayley, looks like its up to you to cheer me up! :/

When it rains~

What an awesome day of tchoukball at sentosa yesterday. Although i got like burnt on my arms haha! It was sucha great experience of tchoukball. TP is imba, like serioulsy...OMGOSH!

Anyways i went to find kayhan, derek and calvin at Ion after tchoukball. They shopped like what the heck hahaha! Especially derek, he is nuts hahaha! i only bought two topman shirts which i find is an extremely good buy :)

Well i was at church today when all of a sudden i felt so tired and sick. I really did not want to go to cell, but thanks to Josh who dragged me there i went. Which i am so grateful to him, if it wasn't for him i would have not received healing in cell. So thanks JOSH although he wont see this haha!

I wanted to post yesterday but blogger was being a bitch so i gave up.
Anyways yesterday was a really really weird day. I woke up at like 9 to go to a pool competition which i was supposed to win and get $120 to contribute to my drum set funds. But i didn't even qualify. I played so bad, i guess its cause of pride, complacency, overconfidence and me thinking i can win without God. Guess we all know how that worked out.

Well after a really humiliating morning of wasting my time, i went to town with Kay Han :) to shop for his stuff. We went down to Ion which is like a higher class version of Ngee Ann if you know what i mean ;D Anyways i led Kay Han into this store cause i thought the clothes inside were really nice. Turns out 1 plain but very nice on Kay Han shirt cost like $120. We were like WTF!? Well he was...i was more like WTH!? (Kay Han under influence of army = more vulgarities =P)

Then we were hungry so went down to the basement to look for food...and we found paradise!!! Seriously we came across this Japanese Dango store which served really nice Dango! We ate Mango, Green Tea, and Red bean paste covered Dango's!!! :D shall upload the pics soon! Oh Kay Han ate this fish like waffle with red bean paste filling which was oh sooooo nice! :D (I can feel the temptation LOL!)

Oh and not forgetting the two girls which i saw at ion who were totally freaking lipsmacking mind blasting head turning HOT! And the best part...they were shorter than me :O LOL! One was a singaporean in a dress, so pretty. And the other was this ang moh wearing a freaking low cut dress...nose bleed...seriously if she jump i think drop out...=P

Oh and on the way home...two girls that i didn't want around me were around me. When i went into the LRT these two bloody ah lians were like standing right in front of my face!!! I was like WTH!? The freaking LRT so much space why must stand in front of me...they still adjust their tank tops and bra's in front of my face!? o_o
The minute the door opened at Keat Hong i ran out and straight to my house elevator. LOL! I mean seriously... i may be in need of a girlfriend but im not that freaking desperate HAHAHA! :D

Selling my pool set!

Hello everyone! I am selling my pool set to raise some money for Roland drum set which costs like 2k so please help me by advertising this to anyone and everyone thanks!

http://www.poolfanatic.com/forums/showthread.php?t=14329

I thank God for trials and tribulations, through them we learn and grow. I thank God for opportunities, through them we understand ourselves better.

I feel like im back in primary school. At least concerning the freedom part ._.

I don't usually do new year resolutions but im trying it for a change. So i shall start small, with just 1. What is my new year resolution.

Do what God wants me to.

Simple yet it can be the toughest thing to do.
Hope i can follow and keep to it.

2010

Hello everybody!!! Happy new year to all the peeps!!! :D
I have a great feeling about 2010, cause im turning 18 wooohooooo!!! So many great things are coming in the year 2010, like Church camp!!! :D

Started the year so wonderfully by spending a nice shopping spree day with my mum! I bought ALOT of stuff hahaha! I bought like 2 shirts from Dockers, 1 pants from dockers, 1 Levi's shoe, 1 Levi's Jeans and a Levi's belt! AWESOME!!! :D

Everything is worth like $650, but we spent like $400 which is still alot of money hahahaha! But everything was a good buy cause its all really nice. Especially the Levi's Jeans, finally a really nice black Jeans hahaha! Love Levi's! =D

Gym

Hello everyone. I don't really feel like posting now cause im very tired from gym. Some crazy uber fit guy taught us some super effective workouts today. My abs feel like their going to light aflame or something. ._.

Well yesterday was the christmas party, it was alright but i think it was too rushed. =/
Whole cell stayed over at Charlotte's house the day before. Had an awesome BBQ with lots of fun, joy and laughter. Went to Josiah's house to meet him. Watched Taken which is a totally awesome show. Went to Hillview Heights for the Christmas party to play games, eat, testimonies and enjoy each others company.

Thanks to Yong Chian for lending me the book Every Young Man's Battle. Shall start reading it soon. Very soon hahaha! Well i shall go bathe and rest after a tiring morning of gym. BYE!

WOAH! I had the weirdest dream like ever hahaha! I dreamt that i was in a very grand prom where everyone was like so nicely dressed up and stuff. Then while i was just hanging around this brunette in a yellow dress came up to me and helped me straighten my tie. Then she said...lets stay be together.

My dream was weird cause its like i was living as someone else cause (this might be very funny but wtheck) I dun remember being so tall hahaha! Its like in my dream i was someone else completely. Like for my dream i was living in the view of someone else. So cool! Sort of like Avatar.

Then as i progressed on into my dream things started to get weird. Like my ex-girlfriend or smthing was not happy i was with that girl and she went up on stage trying to do smthing. Then I left that area but when I looked back my current girlfriend was gone. So i started looking everywhere for her. When i found her she tried to run away from me.

I thought it was something i did, but actually its cause she has to migrate to Rome. (At this point of time it felt very real to me so i cried) So now i know how it feels like to be in this kind of situations cause of a dream. Cool dream, nice experience. Maybe i dreamt this cause i saw too much drama yesterday haha!

Back From Youth camp!

Alright Youth Camp was so great cause its my first and i got to plan it hahahaha! It was so much fun. Not to mention it was an emotional roller coaster. I got so much closer to my friends, made some new ones and I am also much much much closer to God! To God be the glory! :D

Anyways i just came back from another awesome day out with church friends. Went to westmall to watch Avatar which is awesome btw hahaha! Personally i think its better than Lord of the Rings which is like my favourite movie ever if you didn't know haha!

After that, went to town and got christmas presents! :D
Very tired now...so CHAO OUTSIDE!!! LOL =D

Youth Camp!!! :D

Yay youth camp!!! Youth camp is coming real soon and im extremely excited. Cause its my first and also im part of the committee who planned it. Its gonna be awesome!!! :D

Anyways...on thur Hong Bin, Darren and Ernest came over to my house to complete our video making project! I think the video is dam funny! I really enjoyed working on it and watching the final product at the end. They decided to stay over cause it was so freaking late and we still had alot to do. In the end we had to stay up till 4 am to finish our work. Which means only 2 hrs of slp. -.-

After the presentation i was extremely happy cause all the stress just fly away!!! =)
Even though i still have an Astats paper on thur, im alrdy in the holiday mood. So i went to stay over at Calvin's house but instead of staying over at his house we actually went over to Cavell's house for poker. We played poker until 4 am, then i couldn't take it so i fell asleep unintentionally LOL! I learned so much more about poker from Isaac, Derek and Andreas...not so much from Lemuel HAHAHAHA! =)

Happily but very restlessly took 143 back to Calvin's house and slept, no no. More like knocked out until 3 hahahaha! Then woke up and played LoL hahahaha! Anti-climax. Oh i almost forgot, i was dam surprised when i saw Justin at Cavell's house ytd...but at the same time very delighted. My first church friend that i knew won't stay awake past 11 hahaha! So much has changed...I'm lovin' it hahahaha! Im living in the present, enjoying the memories of the past and looking forward to the future. First church friend FTW!!!

I love you ZHOU!!!! If not for you i dunno what i will be doing now...REALLY! THANKS SO MUCH for that church camp! :) That sounded so gay hahaha, but i really needed to say it :)

Have not posted sucha long post in sucha long time =)

See that ^ thats how i feel...completely bored! D:

So much school work im bored of it. Now in NP blogging while waiting for my friend. I feel so UGH!!! When people are having fun...loads of fun...my exams are coming. And i cant even go for youth camp like the full youth camp. I know at least i can go for the last 2 days but still...maybe i should learn to appreciate what i have more than whine about stuff i don't have.

Shall try to appreciate every moment of my life good or bad.

Faith for Everyday Living

MUSE FTW!!!!

Hello people! Who would have thought that God would speak to me through christian page in facebook called Faith for Everyday Living. It was just a normal emo day as usual just like the past 3 weeks. I saw something in my facebook inbox, it was a message from Faith for Everyday Living:

“ Blessed is she who believed, for there will be a fulfillment of those things which were told her from the Lord’ Luke 1: 4

What thoughts are running through your mind this week? Are they thoughts of doubt or are they thoughts of faith? If you believed, that what you receive is directly related to what you believe, would you change your thoughts?

One of the biggest hindrance to Faith is our own Self Doubt. We wonder how ‘WE’ are going to make it happen. The Good News is that when your faith is in God, YOU don’t have to make it happen. That’s God’s job, our job is to believe his word.

Mary didn’t struggle to conceive a child, she just received the word of the Lord and his word was fulfilled in her life. Our impatience with God’s timing can cause us to make happen the work that only God can do for us and in us. Imagine if Mary had tried to solve the conception problem herself?!

When we take matters into our own hands we end up with a Hagar and Sarah conflict and create a thorn for our flesh, but when we wait for God, his timing is perfect and brings great blessings.

Isaiah 40:31
“But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.”

Keys to faith: Do an audit on your thought life and get tough with unbelief. Write down scriptures that build faith and speak them out on a daily basis.

Carolyn.

When Jesus speaks the text is red =) Thanks Carolyn for that message, although i dunno who u are LOL! :D

Seriously... im very tired. Its not helping when im trying to forget and reminders just keep coming everywhere i turn. I dont expect anyone to understand how i feel, and im sure no one cares.

Starlight

Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from my memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

The starlight
I will be chasing your starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away, never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes & revelations
And our hopes and expectations
Black holes & revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away, never fade away

And our hopes and expectations
Black holes & revelations, yeah
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes & revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold

We have to look beyond the surface

I really thank God for Ps Andrew's sharing at youth today. Cause it really hit me and it hit me hard. What would God say to me on the day when he comes and we all float in mid air to meet him in the sky. Will my deeds on earth survive the fire? Will i be rewarded?

Well all i have to do now is obey God and i can ensure that i will get what i deserve. Im inspired to live for Jesus and i hope this fire lasts an eternity! The things of this earth are trivial compared to eternity. Thats why love lasts for an eternity.

The love I have for you is the closest I came to God's love for me, but i guess its not enough.

I love Facebook

Hello people! The only reason i haven't posted until now is because i didn't want to flood my blog with retarded emo posts.

Anyways...I wanna get more tanned!!! LOL! Yes i know what your thinking...(aren't u dark enough?) Well the reason is now i look like a malay. But if i get more tanned i will look like those chinese guys who are super tanned and they do not like indians.

If you dun know what i mean, go look a an experienced dragonboater. Im going to sentosa on saturday!!! Skipping S&W attachment to go =( i feel bad for skipping lessons this week. I just skipped EE today to go running running with Josiah and Kay Han later at WCP! LOL!

Must train!!! Stupid knee injury make me so unfit...Oh and the God wants you to know app on facebook rocks!!! Its the reason im posting now hahaha! If u know what i mean =)