Don't really have much to post, life has been boring...really boring. People keep getting in my way in everything that i do. I feel so lazy and bored nowadays, like I'm turning into a Samuel Tan or something haha. Not saying that its bad, but sam is just lazy beyond me haha!

I have lots of friends but I am starting to wonder if my philosophy of balance should not apply to friends. Cause it seems that when u try to balance your friendships you just end up with lots of friends but not a single friend who will stick by you no matter what, take a bullet for you, defend you, be a shoulder to cry on, a person to share my burdens with and etc. you get the idea, I'm talking about a true friend.

So i guess its time to choose very carefully the friends i want to be with and be a true friend to them and just stick with them. I'm really starting to be very distant from God, maybe thats why i feel like i have not even one true friend. Well i have an exam tmr and im not studying at all firstly cause i have no mood, secondly i cant get any of it into my brain and i just hope i don't fail this module. I want nothing more nothing less.

I have also been very lifeless and emotionless except for anger which is like the emotion i get most of the time, which is really bad. I read Men's Health for like the first time today and decided to follow the diet and excercise regime inside. I tried the excercise earlier today and i gotta say i nvr pushed myself this hard before. I worked so hard that i felt extremely dizzy after the excercise and i could like only hear my heartbeat and other emphasized sounds around me.

It was completely weird and cool but at the same time i felt like i was gonna collapse on the floor and die or something.