Loser...

I feel like a complete loser so far...at the beginning of poly i wanted to join dragon boat so badly, in the end nvr join. Wimp! Then after that now i say wan to join rugby, i go there and stone nvr join again. Loser! Why is it that my mind is so easily swayed, so easily influeanced. Why is it that The Indescribable God that is without a doubt the most amzing of all does not show in my life.

Am i fit to be called a christian, i feel like i am not worthy. This name is for the servants of an almighty God, but why am i such a wimp. Where is my faith!? In God i shall seek refuge and wisdom. Time to ask myself, what would Jesus do?